Sometimes I dream of stars
and I hear water bubbling
and I think about our memories
then they dissipate
Sometimes I dream of you sleeping
I sit beside you and try to speak
then the dust spills from my mouth
and onto your face
I try to clean it up
but I’m smearing the dust into your eyes
as they fill with blood and tears
then you turn to water
and I hear bubbling.
I wake up in a pool of sweat beside you
and roll over to face you.
I want to cry on your shoulder.
I want hold you forever.
I want to scream at you,
punch a hole in a wall.
I want to shake you,
until those thoughts stop forever
Instead I get and get a glass of water
and for just a second,
I hear bubbling.